Dear Diary: the curse of being an avoidant girl ♡
I need to confess something because I know I can't be the only one who does this: I am officially under a curse of being the most avoidant person ever.
It is a non-stop cycle. The second my gut starts telling me a guy likes me (and my gut is 100% always right—do I always listen to it though? No.), I start avoiding him. It doesn't even matter if I "liked" him first or thought about him constantly. I immediately get the "ick" if I get even the tiny hint that he could potentially like me. The literal second he starts showing actual interest (back) I completely shut EVERYTHING down. Like ERROR CONNECT.
All those romantic feelings instantly vanish and my immediate instinct is to dodge his texts and avoid him like crazy.
It’s like my brain has a built-in switch that flips the moment a crush turns into actual reality. If he makes it obvious that he likes me, I immediately start overthinking and panicking and in the end I pull away completely. Maybe I'm just romanticizing the idea of having a crush? I don't know.
I could never picture myself in a relationship. I don't know why- I just can't.
I feel like if I had a crush and he asked me out, I would immediately say no. I feel like I am Summer from 500 Days of Summer. That is my curse.
Oh and i hate those people that say they hate summer. You just don't get her.
Does someone out there relates to this or am I actually insane for that? Can a psychology student tell me what's wrong with my brain lol ₊˚⊹♡
xoxo, NotLee 💌
This is literally my problem!!! I talk to so many people I like and then the minute they start flirting I get super uncomfortable and cut them off like an asshole *crys*
ReplyDeleteliterally same!!
DeleteThis is so REALL - genuinely I will literally stand within a miles radius from them immediately
ReplyDeleteI feel I am avoidant, my family and friends mention it a lot! My parents always said I would grow out of it but never did and I’m 24 now lol! I am avoidant with people in general, like maintaining friends/relationships! Someone says they want to hang out (with the intentions of becoming friends or romantic intentions) and my gut is always like “erm no?”
ReplyDelete“I completely shut EVERYTHING down. Like ERROR CONNECT.” Literally meeeeeee!! omds! I would forget to text back or avoid hanging out with that person!
I feel like this is an universal experience
DeleteI honestly can relate a bit to this. I wouldn't say I'm 100% avoidant as I'd feel so happy if my crush likes me back, However if he asks me out to be his gf I am definitely saying no because idkkk I feel that relationship is just not for me... and idek know why.. perhaps cuz I longed to it so bad in high school and never rlly got that that made me give up and just not give a shit bout "love" anymore
ReplyDeleteyess exactly!! I just cannot see myself in a relationship
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